peanuts are bigger than guests brains

Wow! In the last week I have had a total of 5 people (1 flight attendant) ask "how far along are you??" "i feel so bad you are working the overnight and are pregnant" I'M NOT PREGNANT PEOPLE!!!
Second off, do people actually ever look at mapquest, google, yahoo maps??? The internet is an amazing invention created in 1940 and have continued to grow to aim and myspace and facebook. Do these people have facebook...because if they do they must use a computer to log in, then durrr take the extra 5 seconds to mapquest it. Laziness that's what I am calling it. There are so many inventions created...cell phone, internet, cars, dvd, nintendo...so many different technological inventions that help run America but they are starting to drive peoples minds away. People are 20 times stupider now than they were before computers. You would think though that if you can find something online they would go on and figure shit out. BUT NOOOO they are too stupid and lazy to think about that. They need everything served to them on a platter for christ's sake. I spent 10 uneeded minutes on the phone with this woman who kept asking the same questions. Also, i don't know where Harvard's pool is located so if I don't know why don't you look it up? Why do I have to? I can tell you local stuff but if you go further than 20 minutes I think you should research that stuff on your own. Why did I chose today of all day's to quit smoking! I'm going insane! plus there was something that happened this morning that was just too odd to even talk about. If I am confused I think anyone else I told would be too. SOOO CONFUSED AND AGGRAVATED!!!

sleep is apparently not over rated

Okay so my blogging has been slacking a bit. Thank god my week of 55+ hours is done. But funny thing is I still managed to pull a 55+ hour week this week, but only because of acting. I worked on set 16+ hours the other day after working a 3-11 shift, which I felt so bad for Jen because I left her 10 minutes early which is when it got busy. Funny thing about a hotel, even if it seems and looks quiet, within 5 seconds it can became insanely busy, then goes back. Last night I worked an overnight and had an audition at 12 so I decided to rehearse my lines and not sleep, and now that I am finally home I guess my question is how am I able to handle these days of no sleep? 

Funny enough I just read up on what can happen if you are sleep deprived "daytime drowsiness, irritability, increased risk of falling", I happen to have increased my coffee intake, I happen to get aggravated on small things (like if one of the drivers are sitting by the phone and I can't get to it), and after my audition today I fell. I almost broke my ankle too! I had to walk around Brighton until it didn't hurt anymore. Luckily, I only broke some skin on the knee YAY JEANS!! So going further into my studies (damn Jen you have me researching stuff now stop rubbing off on me!) It is a good thing I don't have a car too because apparently fatigue has caused 100,000 accidents and 1500 deaths a year! That's insane! Without sleep your immune system slows down making you more vulnerable to infection or disease.  One thing as I was reading that I was amazed by is that if you get less than 7 hours of sleep you are supposed to make up for it with a few extra hours the next night, but if you have spent several days without much sleep you need a sleep vacation! Get out, there's a vacation towards sleep! Apparently, you just sleep, eat then sleep again for a few days. HA! Who gets to have time to do that??? I want to meet that person! You age too! I don't like that! The more sleep deprived you are the faster you age and makes your life span deplete.  www.helpguide.com

There is so much more I could look up, but after just reading that I think I should probably try sleeping right now. I hate how I have become more of an insomniac than I already was :( Goodnight

Humanity is to stupidity as cheese is to mice

The hotel today is on stupid pills I believe. People are rude, stupid as fuck and do not understand the difference between their ass and their elbow. Plus people have the feeling that I care about their life and tell me everything I do not need to know when they call. Do you need a pickup? A simple yes or no woudl suffice. I do not care about your name, I do not care about how old you are, I do not CARE! Jen and I are here banging our heads off the wall trying to get answers out of these people. United is out in less than a month so I don't care if you want a king room, you have two beds, you will sleep there and you will like it. United flight attendants I think have the size of a peanut as a brain. This flight attendant was wacked out of her head,, plus she asked where the bathroom is, everytime I ever tell them "around the corner" I point in the direction it is. Apparently, she does not know a point to the right from the left because she comes back and asks where it is. As she's telling me all about how she went to the left and couldn't find it. You stupid fuck! Then asking questions like "what time is my flight" "what time do you think I should wake up" we don't know your flight and we don't know what other peoples thoughts are so if you are asking what someone thoughts are...WE ARE NOT MIND READERS!

Ok so I would have continued on a rant but after a Miami Air crew came in there is no reason to stay pissed. This woman cracked Jen and I up just now. Then a guy raved about Jaggerbombs. So now I went for pissed off to happy. yay good literate people

I'm random and I love it

So I just viewed my online banking statement and oh boy did that just get me really happy! Next paycheck I will have enough saved up for my car!!! Yes Jen i will come to your place or work and beep beep so we can drive and smoke cigarettes with the windows down. i also no longer have to say beep beep since I will actually be able to do a real life HOOONKKKKK hahaha. As anybody who reads my life blogs (mainly Jen) today was a happy day. I slept late, woke up to a nice phone call from a cute boy and then ate and slept again, along with watching some werewolf movie. Overall I can't complain since i am almost caught up on sleep, tomorrow won't exactly keep me on track, but YAY party. I'm going to my friends St. Patrick's Day party and I am going to drink and be merry. And Sunday I get to gossip and talk with Jen about my galavanting at the bars.
Random thought of the day:
Why did St. Patrick's day become a day of drinking? Is it because it is an Irish name? Or is it because it just gives everyone a reason to take off a day of their life and be merry? I'd like to think the last one. A child laughs so much in a day, and I do as well, but other people don't. So I say bring on the random holiday of drinking and everyone drink and get drunk and laugh with your friends and have a good time. Have work because you work somewhere that doesn't let you have it off, such as a hotel? Easy solution, go out on a Saturday night like I am going to be doing. Everyone deserves their own "me"time, and what better way to spend "me" time laughing and having a good time. I love you Patrick (okay that was weird) let me rephrase that one, I love you St. Patrick for giving Americans a reason to be drunkards! Bring on the drinks while I do my Irish jig in a kilt that I do not have, but will find! Yay Dropkicks, Flogging Molly, and every Irish band! And yay Mom for my cornbeef and cabbage dinner on Sunday, which I will be eating at 1pm.
Funny I just said that because Jen and I were talking about cornbeef and cabbage just the other day. Sorry Jen I know you don't like it, and I know I don't look Irish, but I am and I will like it....maybe I'll bring her some to work on Sunday. Goodnight to those who are sleeping and those who are not, I feel your pain, I too am working. Smile though it makes the day suck less.

GARGHHH

started at 4pm and realized I never posted...so 4 hours later (i'm good now)

OMG so I am a happy person, I try to be at least, but my friends are so fucked up and I can not believe how they can make my mood soo fucking insane! I was friends with this girl Diane and she ended up getting this surgery and since then I don't even talk to her because she doesn't even give anyone the time of day. My friend Mike went out this girl who I thought was my friend but then she turned on me. Now Diane is going around spreading stuff saying that I said stuff, when I have not talked to her since November! How can I say jackshit when I no longer talk to the friggen person! Now Mike doesn't know who to believe and thinks I am untrustworthy. I don't cry I really don't, but I just spent a half hour in the Northgate parking lot bitching out my friend because he sent these asshole texts to my phone. Then broke out crying after lashing out about all the things he has done to me. He has been shady in the past and I let him know it and to think I'm lying just tops it. I have such a fun time with him and everything, but honestly if I have a friend that doesn't know if they can trust me and cut me out of his life for almost a year because his gf thought there was something between me and him , i am not at fault. but I don't even know if I can be friends with him. I don't know if I can be friends with anyone except my friend Courtney who is like my sister, and I have my cousin and my real sister Jen. Who needs friends that need to talk (such as Diane). This is high school shit, and Diane, Kay, and Lauren (all the people involved in this whole fucking mess) they are all still in college...partying, drinking and starting drama. I have graduated from college, work a full time job and then do my passion of acting on the side. I have my hobby and I have my life. I do not need drama added on whatsoever..it's unneeded, unnecessary and there just is no space for it. I am at the point of my life where I do not need this shit and will not participate in it, I actually said to my friend Mike, decide what you want and believe what you want because honestly I do not care right now, I don't need this in my life and if you want to believe her go ahead, have a nice life because I don't want to think about a friend not trusting me. Not gonna happen! He wasn't in my life for a long period of time after the whole Kay thing and now I have trouble trusting him so honestly what is this whole thing worth.  I just can't take people right now!

Mumbo jumbo

Alright here goes a little ramble because not too much happened today. It was gorgeous out today! I went outside and breathed in the fresh air mixed in with some nicotine and enjoyed for the first time in a long time a nice joyful cigarette! Boy was that refreshing...until I had to go back into the hotel to be told by a platinum member that we were all idiots...whereas he was the moron!! He had the friggen name under someone else's and he's over there spelling his name like we were third graders and I just wanted to say seriously do you want a cookie for your spelling! OMG spg I can't get enough of ranting over them. Funny enough, I am SPG, but it came with the job so I am not a hypocrite on that end.  

Hotel funness, love the one hour stays with some random hoes, you make it seem like you aren't doing anything bad by having the girl wait in the car while you are checking in, but hellooo you walk in with her.  And she walks in with her head down, I seeee youuu! And i'm sure her head won't be down for that hour in the hotel room so ladies have some respect for yourself...if you want to be a one hour bing bang at least keep your dignity and walk with your head raised high because if you want to be the one hour quickie with Habeeb at least be proud of it. Maybe it will be the worst hour of your life in that case tell the fellow female friends to beware of the 6 inch prick, but if it's gonna be good....be happy!!

I have so much to say because it was really busy at the hotel and whenever I tried to write a blog a new person had a new question...or the same question that I answered five times then got told "ya i wasn't listening" well uh durrr since i'm over here drawing it out for you, maybe I'll call our scholar platinum speller over and he can spell it out and draw you a picture. 

Oh people, I love them so much because they are a fun species. Myself personally have fairies and butterflies flying around all day because I am always in my own world. But when I stop daydreaming and start observing this race all I can do is laugh. People alllll think they are right and when they find out they were wrong they say "oh i knew that"...hmm well if you knew that why don't you explain it back to me. bet you that you can't.

Another mumbo jumbo, Sean who works at the front desk. LOVE HIM! he cracks me up pretty much all the time. Today he came in (he tends to come in when he's not working and it's a fun surprise for the front desk) and says "the best part of Jamie is she can charge someone's credit card 5000 dollars towards bisuteki and when you point out what she did wrong she looks at the problem and then says OOOOOHHH and then she just stares at it for 5 minutes" I nearly died! And the other girl who works the front desk cracked up laughing and said "OMG she does do that and then fairies and butterflies start going off and she goes into her own world". It was wicked funny, and proves my above point that people are funny because I myself am always in another world. If the world was made up of bunnies, butterflies and fairies (along with hot men) I'd be as happy as a clam. Hey God maybe tomorrow when I wake up it should rain gumdrops, please, thanks. I'm out!

50 personal things

Okay so 50 personal things about myself which I never would dare say aloud except for some things...geez I should be sleeping, but my body hates me...kind of depressing so beware

1) I talk a lot

2) I love life

3) I love running in the rain

4) I love dancing

5) Singing even if I sound bad

6) Smoking even if I yelled at a bf of 3 years to quit, whatever I am a hypocrite

7) I wasn't always a smoker, but after a couple years of college I started getting roles that I wanted so badly I would cry myself to sleep because I got them, but had to do a fucking play that I almost got the lead for but didn't because the director said I didn't have a big enough chest and ended up being a small role. I am happy I did it because I am not a quitter and I love acting, but seriously I should have been the lead, I was better than one of the girls and the entire cast told me how they were shocked the other girl got it. Pissed me off because when I got roles for film stuff I couldn't take it because my director said I would be kicked out of the play and if that happened i would have bad blood with someone in the acting world. If I say I will give 100% I stick by that and don't back out..it's just how I am and who I am. I am not a quitter

8) 9)above listed (not a quitter, play, blah blah blah)

10) I was in a sorority called Gamma Phi Beta, I loved it to the core. I had everything Gamma Phi, bracelet, shirt, sweatshirt, flip flops blah blah blah even made my entire bureau into Gamma Phiness, even was gonna get a tattoo of a crescent moon, but the fuckers said that I couldn't take a semester off for the play because it was not academic...HELLLLLOOO I'm a theatre major. I was not in as many plays as I should have been because I was doing the sorority..i tried assistant manager on a play and got bitched by the sorority all the time and they put me on delinquency because i was missing too much, yet i wasn't sleeping and was falling asleep in notes of blocking and lighting and all that shit...they had me working crazy stuff and my grades were slipping so they wanted to put me on delinquency for that and they made me feel like i was an awful sister. cried myself to sleep every night and picked up smoking more! it was an awful last year and they ended up telling me i had a choice to resign or be terminated. I put my all into it though and i know i did my best, they even said i didn't care about them and that they should be number one and they know it isn't. Obviously!! Theatre is number one, in my heart and soul...maybe i'll get another tattoo with theatre or dreams i love dreams we'll see...but yea the sorority fucked me hard core! i love the sisters i met and the ones who stuck by my side. But one girl ooooo i would be happy if i never see her face again 

11) After my abusive relationship I was so fucked up that I turned to sex and had sex with numerous amounts of guys and developed a drinking problem because I drank a lot then met some random guy at a bar and went home with him. I became a nympho and an alcoholic at college drinking til I blacked out then waking up next to guys I didn't care about.  I didn't care about anything because I was numb..I had no feelings towards guys and sex had no meaning to me. I am better now but it took years of healing

12) with that said I am not a whore but I had an awful experience

13) I am a very happy person even though my thoughts don't sound it

14) I do have down days

15) I have been in love before

16) Was almost engaged before

17) Was thrown against a fridge and molested by a bf (never thought that was possible but it happened) that is what triggered number 11

18) Was bulimic in high school then was found by my best friend and she made me stop

19) I have never cut myself, but have hurt myself before

20) I have been to California and want to move there

21) I love Tom Hanks like it shouldn't be normal...I love his acting and am inspired by him

22) I love that Jen who I work with I am able to tell things I can't tell anyone else at work (like when I was drunk)

23) I was almost raped before and had to put a restraining order on the guy

24) I was in an abusive relationship for almost a year

25) I have had sex with a rapper lmao

26) I am secretly in love with my best friend but he is completely unaware

27) I wish I could be in a relationship with Will a guy I met on a cruise back in August but he lives in California

28) I am seeing my brother's film next month in Cali as well as seeing Will aka tequila guy

29) I love acting and want to be in a soap opera one day

30) I like this guy I work with but am afraid if we get into a relationship it will make things awkward because we work together

31) I recently heard he is in a relationship and now am all confused because he's coming over tomorrow and has come over other days and it makes me wonder if I'm a mistress because I don't do that shit. Cheaters are assholes and if I don't do it neither should they

32) I am terrified of relationships...I've been hurt so many times they scare the crap out of me. I am afraid of my heart getting broken or better yet being forced to do things I don't want to do hence James the ex who can kiss my ass everytime i see him...he's the reason I am afraid to have relationships because he messed me up so bad.

33) I went out with a guy named Jordan but I think it was more a fling..he told me he loved me then broke up with me and started going out with a girl from Maine...i don't know how but they are still together

34) yea after saying Jordan and James and how Andy cheated on me i am all set with relationships

35) I went to Disney when I was 9

36) My Nonie died of Cancer when I was 9 which I have a butterfly tattoo on my hip to remember her by

37) I had a dream the night before my Nonie passed away that I was a softball game and into the 7th quarter the moon got covered and a cloud went over that looked like my Nonie, then I had a dream directly after of my Nonie in a coffin in a gold dress...I told my parents and my brother the next day and then told my mom I did not want to go to my softball game and wanted to stay with my Nonie because of my dream...my parents said my Nonie would want me to go to the game. I went to my game and my mom's friend picked me up and drove me home..I knew it was weird that my Mom's friend was picking me up...when I got home my parents were all upset and my Dad sat me on his knee and I said Nonie passed away while I was in the game didn't she...he said yes...7:15 my Nonie had passed away...that was when I was in the 7th quarter. I couldn't believe I had a premonition and the worst thing about it was I had told everyone and they looked at me like I was crazy, but they all commented on how I dreamt that.  She was buried in her 50th anniversary gown, which was gold.

38) My dad was in a fire when I was 12 because our bbq grill blew up (the night before I dreamt my house was on fire and told my brother which scared him) my dad recupperated and since then I don't sleep very well because I am afraid of dreaming of something bad.

39) My Papa passed away when I was 19 and i have a rose under the butterfly to remember him by

40) I have my belly button pierced

41) I miss college

42) I want to sing and dance now that I am getting this all off my chest 

43) I have flagpole sitta in my head because of Jen lol

44) I like to smile and be happy because I don't like misery

45) I pray before I go to bed everynight for those I love and have lost and I thank god for letting me live another healthy day

46) I have fallen asleep while praying because I was so tired lol

47) I need to lose weight but I love my body and I love myself

48) I like to drink and have a good time

49) I need to dance this out

50) I loooove my bed and will attempt to fall asleep now after this one little excerpt

I know that life has challenges and I have faced some of the toughest ones but they have made me stronger and have made me a better person as well as smarter and more aware. I thank god for these challenges and making me a better person. I love my life and wouldn't do anything different, I live without regrets and if anyone doesn't like me because they think I am too happy it's annoying they can fuck themselves. I am who I am and whoever wants to be in their own miserable state I say go do it, but stay the hell away from me. I have good days and I have bad days, everyone does. But everyday should not be a bad day, unless you need attention and are boo hoo blah blah blah, seriously go outside and look at the clouds and make animals out of them, look at the stars and wish upon one, play in the snow, breathe in the fresh air, look up to the sky and say thank you god for letting me be here. These are 50 things about myself and yes they are not happy and yes there are a lot more things about me, but these are some of the hardest things I have faced but I have lived through them and am still standing and still laughing and still being the crazy self that I am...and nobody will ever take that from me

another one in one day

Okay to continue onto what I was saying..I have ten minuted left of work so this will be short.

Another ramble/complaint...United are bitches!! "I have an odd numbered room, this is not even" Bitch you will get what I give you! You have a room and a heater and there's alcohol downstairs, go drink yourself to an oblivion until you don't even know what room number you are in. Stuck up snob...bitch people can't even afford these rooms and you get it for free...fucker!

So I forget what I wrote in the last blog already lol. but i think I was talking about the electrocution. So my heart got all of beat and had to regain it's normal pattern. I looked at Jen and was like "I need a cigarette after I get feeling in my arm". But I am okay, obviously since I am alive and writing.

So..I want to write more, but I will write a novel when I get home. One last ramble before the blog though....FUCKIN SPG! I don't care who are you and don't tell me your car is irrevelant..i'll tow your fucking ass! Beep beep here I come!! They want everything stupid people...okay I need to cashout believe me this is only the beginning haha

Day 1 of this little blog thingy

I feel like I should say dear diary or dear blogger, but anywho dear anyone who reads this and then says "Jamie I know what you did yesterday". Okay to start my blog off I must say I am a clutz, I have mood swings, I am giddy and I have spurts of terets where I swear out of nowhere...so be prepared.

So today I not only electrocuted myself....okay I was going to keep talking about that, but I will save that to the end because right now I have some lady I have never met in front of me trying to get me and Jen to go to Uno's with her. hmm...awkward! She keeps talking to me, but I want to say damn lady let me enjoy my first blog. I can't even think of what to write because she wants me to get thin crust pizza.

Okay she left, so Jen has corrupted me and gotten me onto this site, so we will see what happens from here. She also saved my first blog so she could find me lol. And I know you are reading this Jen because you found me :)

Okay, onto my stupidity of eletrocuting myself (this is why I gave my caution in the beginning..this stuff happens). So I was picking up a damn heater because I was cold and the fucking thing electrocuted me!! WHO DOES THAT! What the fuck! My entire left arm went numb and then my heart was off rhythm...I think I spelled that right because there's no fuckin dictionary...at least facebook has the spell check lol.

hmm...I will be back to write more...all this thinking makes me need a cigarette...off with Katie..be back